Slowly but surely

I lost .4 pounds! Yay! I know I have not seen a lot of results but I like the way I'm starting to feel. I do still gross myself out with the fat that I have gained off such a short period of time, but I feel better about myself, that I am still attractive and a "catch". I went to the gym today and did the elliptical for 40 min and the sauna for 15 min. I really like the sauna. its relaxing and soothing. I think everyone should sit in a sauna for a few minutes a day. I did okay diet wise. I did use a drive thru but I did not get anything fried and I got tea so it wasn't good but it wasn't a deadly sin either. But hooray me, I'm going out tonight with my friend Tanya. I have not been out with a girlfriend in, I can't even remember. I need this. I need an outlet to kick my feet and have a good frickin time. I don't have to worry if I bought enough diapers or if some one pooped their diaper.

stupid vacation

because of that vacation I gained two pounds. but i have faith in the system that if I keep at it that i'll see results because lets be honest being fat sucks, really sucks and I hate it. So I worked out and showered and sat in the sauna for 14 min and then showered again. I really like showering at the gym. its so nice and relaxing, no kids at my feet playing and tripping me up. but diet wise I did not do good. I stopped drinking sodas again but I had mcdonalds breakfast this morning because I was in a rush and then I had a second helping of spaghetti at dinner and it made my tummy upset. I'm confident though and I pray I'll start to see some results. well I have seen one result...my butt looks good, a little wide but nice. night night.

Back from Mini Vacation

I'm back from my mini vacation to Cleburne to visit Desi for his birthday. It was fun. We went to Cabela's in Forth Worth and just spent time with each other and kids minus Trey because he started kindergarden. Hooray Trey! so Tomorrow will be busy but its back to the gym. Last time I was at the gym I used the sauna and found it relaxing and then when I got home I kept thinking what hell do saunas actually do for you?!?! and there is a ton of benefits. Number one is better skin and its detoxifying. Number two it helps you lose water weight and you know I know it will probably just return a couple weeks later but weight is weight to me right now and relaxing time alone is relaxing time alone and if I can get them both at the same time more power to me so now after strength training, I'm hitting the sauna for some down time. Amen to that. Well I'm worn out.

OMG!

So I was very very very bad today. I didn't work out at all. I was planning on it on but it just didn't happen. Then since I was out running errands today from 11 to 3 I ate out. Then when I got home I ate even worse, I ate two snack almond joys. Then I ordered pizza with a dessert. I ate two slices then 5 pieces of the cinnamon crap they give you. AND NOW I FEEL AWFUL. so I feel like I am the fattest whale overflowing the ocean, but at least now I remember why I stopped eating like that and why i wanted to change. so I learned my lesson. and now I'm paying for it. ugh.

Yoga kind of sucks

So I was looking forward to yoga because I think its relaxing and calming, but today it was really frustrating. I've done yoga before and liked it so I think its the teacher. She does not do the balancing poses like I've done before. Then in some stretching poses she makes you stand up but I've taught to do them sitting down. I like them sitting down because its easier to get a deeper stretch. Then I was going to stay after class to ask a question about a position then one second she was there and the next she was gone. So screw her. I think I am going to this dance class instead. Its called Zumba and its really really popular at my gym. I stayed after to watch them warm up to see if looked like fun. It was energizing and fast paced and looked exited and SEXY. so I'm going to try it out and see if its worth it. Then after that I took my son to the playground for being a good boy while we ran errands. We had subway for lunch and did have a Diet Coke...so I wasn't too bad today. Then I think I am going to try Pilates tomorrow. You never know.

Just another Mad Monday

Today got a jump start. I thought I was going to have to run errands but that did not work out. So I was at the gym by 12. The guy that helped me with my membership suggested that I do Pilates. I think I might on Wednesday before my weight training. I used the squat bar for the first time and man did it make a difference. I bumped up the weight to 25lbs. My boyfriend said you should work with one weight for a little bit and then increase it. so on Wednesday I'm going to do 25lbs again. I did not drink one soda at all today. No chocolate snacks. I had granola cereal for breaskfast and deviled eggs for lunch and tuna sandwich with pretzels for dinner. I snacked on a rice crispy treat. Then as always I had a protein shake after my workout but this time I used milk instead of slim fast. Slim fast is just TOO nasty for me. Tomorrow is yoga, hooray!

This Weekend

Saturday: I did my strength training as planned. I did squats, seated row, 45 degree push ups, and step ups and the weird Swiss ball move. I used 20lbs. I'm not sore though and I am not sure if that is because I am not challenging myself enough. On the other hand, I do not want to over do it, you know. I had my protein shake but those slim fast things are soooo nasty. I do not know how they are still in business, because I have to focus on not throwing up every time I drink it. In my "bible" there is another way to mix it with skim milk and banana so I'm do that next time.
Sunday: This was my day off. I didn't plan it that way but the whole day was just so rushed. I had to be at a bridal shower that was an hour and half away. We stayed for 3 hours then came home and the kids were upset and then it was dinner and I was still going to take them to the park but they fell asleep at eight so I didn't bother. Instead I gave myself some me time which helps my mental health. Diet wise I did awful today. I started good until they brought out cake. I didn't over indulge I just had one piece but I should of just passed. Then I had sweet tea and coke to drink. bad bad bad. Then we picked up KFC on the way home. SO I know I did bad and I can feel it. My tummy is upset from eating bad food. isn't that crazy how your body can tell you when you are doing and when you are doing bad. Well, I'm tired and slightly cranky. Until tomorrow.

Its Friday NOT Thursday

I totally mixed up my days. I thought today was thursday so I was going to attend a yoga class at 4 at my gym. Then I woke up late from a quick nap so I ran out the door and on the way to the gym it started to dawn on me that I might have made a mistake. YUP! I sure did. Then there were no classes for the rest of the evening. Then I was a little bad because on the way home I picked up a Diet Dr Pepper. Then I was home for awhile and messed around on facebook and ate dinner. Then around seven thirty I decided to take the babies for a walk. I took them to the school where the playground is. We left at 7:57 and did not return until past nine. I'm proud of myself for not using the mix up as an excuse to not exercise today. Then I just sneaked a snack size Butterfinger. I could not help myself. But I can feel a change in how I feel already. I feel like I'm changing, even though in reality I'm not going to see a result so soon. I like feeling good about my body because its been years since I felt even a little confident in my body. For breakfast I was pretty good. I had eggs and cinnamon toast, lunch was crackers and laughing cow cheese and dinner was chicken. Thanks I feel good!

After thoughts

I'm really hoping that it is possible to lose 10 pounds in a month. I researched somethings and I've read it is possible if you are so strict you'll be miserable for a month. So I think I am just going to work out alot because that makes me feel good and not starve myself since I'm breast feeding. I feel confident that I can lose this baby weight, but its a long road to lose sixty pounds.

First Day

Today was the first day I started toward my goal. Around 12:30 I went to the gym. I was hoping that Aidan and me could go swimming at the Family Swim Time but I misread my calender because it did not start until six pm. I followed the regime that the book mapped out. I did 2 sets of 15 reps of push ups, lunges, seated row, and step ups. I also did ten jackknifes, I think that what they are called, on the swiss ball. Afterwards I went to the store to pick up some Slim fasts and healthy snacks. I did not have good self control because I also bought some rice crispy treats. I came home and made my protein shake mixed with a slimfast. It wasn't the best thing I ever tasted it but it was not bad and I'm not hungry!!! I don't even feel like snacking. I bought some drumsticks to bake for dinner tonight. I weighted myself and I came in at 201 lbs.

The bet

In the last two years my life style has made a complete 360. I have moved in my boyfriend and had two babies with him. Then I have stopped and restarted school. In the middle of this, my weight has shot up to 200lbs which is ridiculous because for all my life I was a comfortable size 8. So me and my boyfriend have made a bet. Since he works out of town and is gone for about a month at a time, he bet me that I can not lose 10 lbs before he comes home next. My sister gave me a book that has helped me with a workout regime and I'm going to adjust my diet, but I am going to use this blog as a motivator, plus if I win the bet, he said he would buy me diamond earrings. So today I start, and if everything goes right hopefully in a month, I'll be ten pounds lighter.